Be My Valentine Tonight.

20061206

ii just want to ryte dis 'chapter' now.
ii dunch know wht just came over me

why must euhh always say things to hurt me
ii know sometymes it may be my fault.
bt why must euhh always say dhat ii love another boy
im jus tired okay..
im rally tired..
and its because of dis dhat im always going through breakdown dhat ii cnt handle myself
i've always loinged for euhh to be by my side when im down
bt when ii am
so are euhh
for any rason it maybe
bt ii dunch want to feel dhat im trying to lit up your day when mine is nort dhe lest perfect
if ii told euhh tis myself
im afraid euhh will tik dhat ure nort giving me happiness and might end it wth me
but ii most dunch ant dhat to happen
im just voicing out my feelings
so dhat..i unch know..
maybe i' make myself feel better?
sighs
dunch know wht come over me tis days
sometymes when ii tok to euh
i'll feel down
like dhe talk we had just now
som sentnces euhh said really broke my heart.
it realy hurts badly
now.today.
i really felt what dhey call a sharp pain in ure heart
it was ealy unbearable
ii wanted to scream and shout or even cry in pain
bt ii just could nort do it
wanted t0 tell euhh off how ii feel bt for fear it might jeopardise our relationship
it hurts badly
but im just holding one
for dhe fear one day
ii might nort be able to hold one any longer
ii might just fall and crumble
...



12/06/2006 08:14:00 AM